Not Broken

I forgot what it feels like To want to wake up Every morning was just grey But today Today I'm trying Woke up on the wrong side of my own head again Staring at the ceiling like a long-lost friend Every plan I made just turned to dust Every dream I had I forgot to trust I built a cage and called it home Walked the same old circles always alone Nothing hurt That was the lie I just stopped asking myself why Maybe I got used to the dark Forgot there was a spark But tonight the silence feels different Like something's waiting distant I just want to feel the sun on my skin (LET ME TRY) To remember what it's like to begin (I'm so tired) I don't need an answer I don't need a plan Just a tiny crack where the light can land I'm still learning to be a man I stopped calling friends 'cause I had nothing to say Every "how are you" just got in the way But yesterday I saw a kid with a kite Running like the world was still bright And I don't know why but I felt something break Not in a bad way for goodness sake Maybe I'm not done Maybe I'm just late Maybe hope doesn't need to be fake I was ten years old Drawing stars on my arm I believed that being lost Could still do no harm Now I'm twenty-something And I'm losing the plot But I packed my bags For a place I forgot I'm going anyway I just want to feel the sun on my skin (LET ME TRY) To remember what it's like to begin (I'm so tired) I don't need an answer I don't need a plan Just a tiny crack where the light can land I'm still learning to be a man I want to want things again I want to stay up late for no reason I want to laugh until it hurts I want to dream like I'm not broken Я не забуду кем я был Но теперь я выбрал свет Всё что было я любил Всё что будет — мой завет Эта жизнь — не черновик Это главная история Если свобода — это миг Значит я в нём нашёл опору Я нашёл опору