[00:02.12] Hey Nate, how's life? [00:04.43] I don't know, it's alright [00:06.31] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being [00:08.54] And really didn't sleep much last night [00:10.28] I'm sorry [00:11.40] That's fine [00:12.58] I just think I need a little me time [00:14.38] I just think I need a little free time [00:16.36] Little break from the shows and the bus rides [00:18.14] Last year, I had a breakdown [00:20.39] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost, gettin' too loud [00:22.34] Had to see a therapist then I found out [00:24.21] Somethin' funny's going on up in my house [00:26.29] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out [00:28.15] You know pack my cart, take a new route [00:30.22] Clean up my yard, get the noose out [00:32.32] Hang up my heart, let it air out [00:34.34] I've been searchin' [00:35.68] What does that mean, Nate? I've been learnin' [00:37.54] Grabbin' my keepsakes [00:38.58] Leavin' my burdens [00:39.54] Well, I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect [00:41.64] Lookin' at the view like this concerns me [00:43.79] Pickin' up the cues right? I'm quite nervous [00:45.69] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry [00:47.55] And things might hurt me [00:48.64] It's prolly gonna be a long journey, but hey! [00:50.51] It's worth it though [00:52.13] Cold world out there, kids grab your coats [00:53.86] Been a minute I know, now I'm back to roam [00:55.85] Looking for the antidote [00:56.75] To crack the code [00:57.60] Pretty vivid, I admit it, I'm in classic mode [00:59.76] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone [01:01.90] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose [01:03.79] For crackin' jokes [01:04.56] I'm lookin' for the map to hope [01:05.78] You seen it? [01:06.47] Been makin' a whole lot of changes [01:08.22] Wrote a song about that you should play it [01:10.22] I get scared when I walk on these stages [01:11.88] I look at the crowd and see so many faces [01:14.26] Yeah [01:14.74] That's when I start to get anxious [01:16.26] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous [01:18.32] That's when I put on my makeup [01:19.96] And drown in self-hatred, forget what I'm sayin an'- [01:23.28] Where the beat go? [01:24.16] Ohh [01:25.35] Ain't that somethin' [01:26.13] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin' [01:28.04] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin' [01:29.90] Gotta taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach [01:32.18] Throw it back up like I don't want it [01:34.14] Wipe my face, clean off my vomit [01:36.09] OCD tryna push my buttons [01:37.93] I said don't touch it [01:38.98] Now y'all done it [01:40.01] I can be critical [01:41.16] Never typical [01:41.75] Intricate with every syllable [01:42.66] I'm a criminal [01:43.42] Intimate but never political [01:44.65] Pretty visual [01:45.43] Even if you hate it, I make you feel like you're in it though [01:47.42] You call me what you wanna, but never call me forgettable [01:49.54] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddy pool [01:51.30] Way that I be thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful [01:53.30] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos) [01:56.81] The sales can rise [01:57.72] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines [01:59.73] See we've all got somethin' that we've trapped inside [02:01.89] That we try to suffocate, you know hoping it dies [02:03.88] Try to hold it under water [02:05.07] But it always survives [02:05.95] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise [02:07.70] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies [02:09.53] You don't relate to that, must not be as crazy I am [02:11.85] The point I'm makin is the mind is a powerful place [02:13.86] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way [02:15.79] It's pretty cool right? Yeah, but it's not always safe [02:17.88] Just hang with me, this will only take a moment okay [02:19.60] Just think about it for a second if you look at your face [02:21.69] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great [02:23.67] You'll never be great [02:24.34] Not because you're not but the hate [02:25.80] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith [02:27.79] (Whoo) [02:28.23] I been developin' [02:29.00] Take a look at the benefits [02:30.17] Nothin' to meddle with [02:30.89] I could never be delicate [02:32.07] Am I even relevant [02:32.79] That depends how you measure it [02:33.44] Take a measurement [02:34.30] Then bag it up and give me the evidence [02:35.81] Pretty evident [02:36.59] Dependable [02:37.11] Can never be tentative [02:37.92] I'm a gentleman [02:38.60] Depending on if I think you're genuine [02:39.73] Pretty elegant [02:40.55] But not afraid to tell you to get a grip [02:41.80] Proper etiquette [02:42.62] I keep it to myself when I celebrate [02:44.82] It's that time again [02:45.85] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends [02:47.82] Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in [02:49.96] Look at me everybody, I'm smilin' big [02:51.60] On a road right now, that I can't predict [02:53.99] Tell me tone that down, but I can't resist [02:55.85] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist [02:57.88] The search begins [02:58.59] I'm back, so enjoy the trip [02:59.38]