[00:36.97] Hey Nate, how's life? [00:38.75] I don't know, it's alright [00:40.67] I've been dealin' with some things like every human being [00:42.67] And really didn't sleep much last night [00:44.78] I'm sorry [00:45.73] That's fine [00:46.83] I just think I need a little me time [00:48.68] I just think I need a little free time [00:50.46] Little break from the shows and the bus rides [00:52.72] Last year, I had a breakdown [00:54.47] Thoughts tellin' me I'm lost, gettin' too loud [00:56.32] Had to see a therapist, then I found out [00:58.56] Somethin' funny's going on up in my house [01:00.30] Yeah, started thinkin' maybe I should move out [01:02.37] You know pack my cart, take a new route [01:04.33] Clean up my yard, get the noose out [01:06.36] Hang up my heart, let it air out (air out) [01:08.76] I've been searchin' [01:09.71] What does that mean, Nate? I've been learnin' [01:11.69] Grabbin' my keepsakes [01:12.63] Leavin' my burdens [01:13.62] Well I brought a few with me, I'm not perfect [01:15.67] Lookin' at the view like this concerns me [01:17.72] Pickin' up the cues right? I'm quite nervous [01:19.63] Hate it when I lose sight, life gets blurry [01:21.64] And things might hurt me [01:22.63] It's prolly gonna be a long journey but hey! [01:25.09] It's worth it though [01:26.09] Cold world out there, kids grab your coats [01:27.99] It's been a minute I know, now I'm back to roam [01:29.96] Looking for the antidote to crack the code [01:32.16] Pretty vivid, I admit it I'm in classic mode [01:33.93] Don't need pity given to me, but I can't condone [01:35.94] Talkin' down to me, I'ma have to crack your nose for crackin' jokes [01:38.74] I'm lookin' for the map to hope, you seen it? [01:40.72] Been makin' a whole lot of changes [01:42.37] Wrote a song about that you should play it [01:44.38] I get scared when I walk on these stages [01:46.10] I look at the crowd and see so many faces, yeah [01:48.64] That's when I start to get anxious [01:50.50] That's when my thoughts can be dangerous [01:52.57] That's when I put on my makeup [01:54.16] And drown in self-hatred, forget what I'm sayin' and- [01:57.37] Where'd the beat go? [01:58.97] Oh, ain't that somethin' [02:00.13] Drums came in, you ain't see that comin' [02:02.00] Hands on my head, can't tell me nothin' [02:04.03] Got a taste of the fame, had to pump my stomach [02:06.20] Throw it back up like I don't want it [02:08.52] Wipe my face clean off my vomit [02:10.23] OCD tryna push my buttons [02:12.34] I said don't touch it, now y'all done it [02:14.34] I can be critical, never typical [02:15.81] Intricate with every syllable, I'm a criminal [02:17.86] Intimate but never political, pretty visual [02:19.79] Even if you hate it, I'll make you feel like you're in it though [02:21.86] You call me what you wanna but never call me forgettable [02:23.59] Leave you deep in thought, I could never swim in the kiddy pool [02:25.68] Way that I be thinkin' is cinematic, it's beautiful [02:27.65] Man, I don't know if I'm makin' movies or music videos (videos) [02:30.88] Yeah, the sales can rise [02:31.94] Doesn't mean much though when your health declines [02:33.93] See we've all got somethin' that we've trapped inside [02:35.82] That we try to suffocate, you know hoping it dies [02:38.18] Try to hold it underwater, but it always survives [02:39.97] Then it comes up out of nowhere like an evil surprise [02:41.94] Then it hovers over you to tell you millions of lies [02:43.96] You don't relate to that, must not be as crazy I am [02:46.05] The point I'm makin' is the mind is a powerful place [02:47.84] And what you feed it can affect you in a powerful way [02:49.90] It's pretty cool, right? Yeah, but it's not always safe [02:52.16] Just hang with me, this will only take a moment, okay? [02:53.91] Just think about it for a second if you look at your face [02:56.07] Every day when you get up and think you'll never be great [02:57.93] You'll never be great [02:58.98] Not because you're not but the hate [03:00.11] Will always find a way to cut you up and murder your faith (woo!) [03:02.24] I've been developin', take a look at the benefits [03:04.12] Nothin' to meddle with I could never be delicate [03:06.31] Am I even relevant? That depends how you measure it [03:08.06] Take a measurement, then bag it up and give me the evidence [03:10.26] Pretty evident, dependable, can never be tentative [03:12.15] I'm a gentleman, depending on if I think you're genuine [03:13.91] Pretty elegant but not afraid to tell you to get a grip [03:16.17] Proper etiquette, I keep it to myself when I celebrate, ah [03:18.62] It's that time again [03:19.99] Better grab your balloons and invite your friends [03:21.93] Seatbelts back on, yeah, strap 'em in [03:23.92] Look at me, everybody I'm smilin' big [03:25.87] On a road right now that I can't predict [03:27.89] Tell me, "Tone that down", but I can't resist [03:29.90] Y'all know that sound, better raise your fist [03:31.91] The search begins [03:32.72] I'm back, so enjoy the trip, huh [03:34.06]