[00:15.76] Yeah, look [00:17.54] I don't do drugs, I'm addicted to the pain though [00:20.27] Yeah, I been on it for a while, dunno how to put it down [00:22.71] Gotta have it, it's a habit I'ma break though [00:24.86] I just wanna take a hit, keep sayin' I'ma quit [00:26.88] Keep sayin' I'ma leave, but I stay though [00:28.87] I just want a little fix, I don't wanna take a risk [00:30.85] I don't like it when I drift from the safe zone [00:32.94] But lately, I been thinkin' I'ma have to [00:34.85] Lettin' go of things that I'm attached to [00:36.30] World don't stop just because I'm in a bad mood [00:38.29] You don't know what love is 'til you holdin' onto somethin' that you can't lose [00:41.45] I swear I'm tryna get it together [00:42.69] Sleeves up, puttin' work in, tryna be better [00:44.73] I like to rap, but I ain't gon' do it forever [00:46.79] Forget the charts, I've been focusing' on holdin' my head up [00:48.91] Moment I get up, I just wanna know I'm doin' my best [00:50.87] And if I'm not, Lord forgive me, you can have the regrets [00:52.85] 'Cause I can feel the water tryna go up over my head [00:54.96] Most of my life, I always felt like I was holdin' my breath [00:57.23] Holdin' my chest, to be honest, so I'm tired of it [00:59.15] Lookin' for somethin' in my life to be inspired again [01:01.04] I like to walk around and act like I don't know what it is [01:03.12] But I know what it is, I just never wanna commit [01:05.45] Runnin' from change [01:08.71] I'm lookin' for change [01:12.91] I'm searchin' for change [01:17.01] I'm lookin' for change [01:21.03] I just want, I just want change [01:23.04] Yeah, I don't like new things [01:24.50] Got a lot of mood swings [01:26.89] Oh, you wanna tell me somethin' negative? [01:28.97] I don't wanna hear what you think [01:30.66] Yeah, tossin' in my sleep [01:33.00] Every night for like two weeks [01:34.84] Thinkin' 'bout how I could have done this or done that better [01:37.24] Can't help it, that's just me [01:38.67] Lies, that's me avoidin' the change [01:40.19] Yeah, that's probably why the issues ain't goin' away [01:42.19] Yeah, that's probably why I always sit around and complain [01:44.00] Tellin' myself that I ain't never gettin' out of this place [01:46.40] Out of my face if you tellin' me I need to be different [01:48.27] That's the issue though, I'm always insecurity-driven [01:50.35] Takin' the wrong turns, actin' like I know where I'm headed [01:52.49] Waitin' for somethin' bad to happen, I can snap any minute [01:54.49] I need change [01:55.33] Yeah, that's kinda easy to say, right? [01:56.61] But difficult to do when I feel like I hate life [01:58.66] And everyone around me kinda thinks I'm a great guy [02:00.79] But I don't ever think it so I think I'm a fake liar [02:02.97] Change [02:03.59] It's somethin' that I know I should do [02:04.85] I'm a little uncomfortable, to tell you the truth [02:06.80] But to be honest with you lately, I got nothin' to lose [02:08.62] See, I've always been full of pain, but now I'm makin' some room [02:10.89] Lookin' for change [02:13.81] I'm lookin' for change [02:18.42] I'm searchin' for change [02:22.41] I'm lookin' for change [02:26.14] I just want, I just want- [02:27.96] I need a moment of silence [02:30.00] I don't like change, but I'll try it [02:31.93] I don't wanna hear what I should or I shouldn't do [02:34.23] Why are they always defiant? [02:36.15] See, all my emotions are liars [02:37.92] All my emotions are violent [02:40.27] They don't want freedom to find me [02:41.81] Mention a name and everybody riots (change) [02:44.50] Yeah, that's why I'm checkin' my vitals [02:46.06] They keep on workin', but I know [02:47.69] Breathin' don't mean you're alive, so [02:49.09] I bag up all of my trash and walk out on my tightrope [02:51.86] Positive thoughts are my rivals (change) [02:53.24] I'm tryna be on their side though [02:54.74] Should I feel comfortable? I don't [02:56.25] Last year, I felt suicidal [02:57.75] This year, I might do somethin' different like talkin' to God more [03:00.09] I'm lookin' for change [03:02.05] I'm lookin' for (yeah) [03:03.82] I'm searchin' for change [03:05.88] I'm lookin' for [03:07.22] I just want, I just want change [03:10.03] I'm lookin' for (yeah) [03:11.94] I'm searchin' for change [03:14.06] I'm lookin' for, yeah (ayy, ayy) [03:15.97] I just want, I just want change [03:18.19] Yeah, I'm lookin' for (lookin' for) [03:20.28] I'm searchin' for change [03:22.23] I'm lookin' for (yeah) [03:23.82] I just want, I just want change [03:26.48] I'm lookin' for (ayy) [03:28.49] I'm searchin' for change (ayy) [03:30.60] I'm lookin' for, yeah [03:32.01] I just want, I just want change [03:37.06]