Guilty as Sin?

[Verse 1] Drownin' in the Blue Nile He sent me "Downtown Lights" I hadn't heard it in a while My boredom's bone-deep This cage was once just fine Am I allowed to cry? I dream of crackin' locks Throwin' my life to the wolves or the ocean rocks Crashin' into him tonight, he's a paradox I'm seeing visions Am I bad or mad or wise? [Chorus] What if he's written "mine" on my upper thigh only in my mind? One slip and fallin' back into the hedge maze Oh, what a way to die I keep recalling things we never did Messy top-lip kiss, how I long for our trysts Without ever touchin' his skin How can I be guilty as sin? [Verse 2] I keep these longings lockеd In lowercase, inside a vault Somеone told me, "There's no such thing as bad thoughts Only your actions talk" These fatal fantasies Giving way to labored breath, takin' all of me We've already done it in my head If it's make-believe Why does it feel like a vow we'll both uphold somehow? [Chorus] What if he's written "mine" on my upper thigh only in my mind? One slip and fallin' back into the hedge maze Oh, what a way to die My bed sheets are ablaze I've screamed his name Buildin' up like waves crashin' over my grave Without ever touchin' his skin How can I be guilty as sin? [Bridge] What if I roll the stone away? They're gonna crucify me anyway What if the way you hold me is actually what's holy? If long-suffering propriety is what they want from me They don't know how you've haunted me so stunningly I choose you and me religiously [Chorus] What if he's written "mine" on my upper thigh only in my mind? One slip and fallin' back into the hedge maze Oh, what a way to die I keep recalling things we never did Messy top-lip kiss, how I long for our trysts Without ever touchin' his skin How can I be guilty as sin? [Outro] He sent me "Downtown Lights" I hadn't heard it in a while Am I allowed to cry?