Self Destruct

I don't know if I've been sleeping or awake Can you save me from myself, now? (Yeah) I don't feel safe with no one else 'round Everybody watching me, while I fight to breathe But I choose to do this myself And know, maybe, I've been too hurt to trust Still don't think I deserve enough And when things go right, I'm reminded of all that is evil I've got that reside in the blood on a slow leak I can feel the change when I'm on the path, but I can't let it go Want you to feel the way that I feel, and try to get you to hear But you won't Falling, I made this bed that I crawl in The darkness in me is calling And all the while, the clock ticks down I'm giving up, I've had enough And I know I can't escape all this damage when I self-destruct I didn't want for this to be how it ends But everything dies when I turn to you, but you turn away Why do I make you afraid? I'm giving up, I've had enough And I know I can't escape all this damage, so I self-destruct Coming undone, I'm afraid every time that I love something I'ma hold too tight, 'til it's fucked up Am I the one, or the one you should run from, huh? I've bottled it up, blame all the trauma, the system corrupt Sick of pretending I'm not at the ending And telling my friends I'm okay, when it's just never enough Ne-never a moment to let you in I don't know if I'll be anything better than what I've become, so I cut the connection And if there's a button to end it, I'm pressing it Falling, I made this bed that I crawl in The darkness in me is calling And all the while, the clock ticks down I'm giving up, I've had enough And I know I can't escape all this damage when I self-destruct I didn't want for this to be how it ends But everything dies when I turn to you, but you turn away Why do I make you afraid? I'm giving up, I've had enough And I know I can't escape all this damage, so I self-destruct So, I self-destruct, 'truct, 'truct So, I self-destruct So, I self-destruct, 'truct, 'truct So, I self-destruct Now, I'm giving up, I've had enough And I know I can't escape all this damage when I self-destruct I didn't want for this to be how it ends But everything dies when I turn to you, but you turn away Why do I make you afraid? I'm giving up, I've had enough And I know I can't escape all this damage, so I self-destruct