I'm Alive

My life is a rollercoaster of emotions Home is with you and without you, I feel like I'm homeless, hopeless Don't miss out on my love Holdin' grudges never got me nowhere, so I let it all go If I can't love myself, how the fuck do I love someone else? But I know I want you Never been the one to beat around the bush So, do you want me too? Every day closer to my casket Time wasted waitin', debatin' on you, but savin' my breath Communicatin' late nights when I'm up pacin' back and forth (yeah, yeah) Baby, you don't wanna be mine? Then why you calling me all the time? Playin' with my mind Takin' advantage, knowin' that I'm fragile (yeah, yeah) Well-spoken, but I'm broken Hopin' you would not leave my heart frozen Feel like I'm close to explodin' Floatin' through the rivers and the oceans 'til I'm gone I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah I can't have no artificial love I need that real, genuine love above anything Baby, you fuckin' with a trust fund baby fuckboy that never been through a thing And I felt pain I never wanted to feel And I seen things I never wanted to see And I just want someone to want me to be me Balls deep in a bitch like I got what you need, baby, leave it to me You'll see what I mean when you give me the time Mind corrupted from my past I get into it knowin' it won't last, but I'm codependent Baby Bone can't be alone Panic attacks at home, so where do I go now? The lone wolf left his comfort zone And opened up the door for whores to let it run its course Of course, I know love is torture Never been known to do what I'm supposed to So I left it all, invested all my time in you Before I knew if it was mutual Please don't give me a reason to leave, I need ya, ya And I know I can't keep up with ya Guess I really gotta give up on ya, ya, ya I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah I'm alive, I'm a liar, I'ma die never lovin' myself, yeah, yeah I'ma ride with my baby girl Nina tucked under my belt You know I just wanna get by, don't wanna feel nothin' inside Swallow my pride, let that bitch ride Let her get high, let her get all of me, yeah