[00:10.60] I'm getting older, I think I'm aging well [00:15.91] I wish someone had told me I'd be doing this by myself [00:22.09] There's reasons that I'm thankful, there's a lot I'm grateful for [00:27.81] But it's different when a stranger's always waiting at your door [00:35.13] Which is ironic 'cause the strangers seem to want me more [00:40.30] Than anyone before (anyone before) [00:48.43] Too bad they're usually deranged [00:53.45] Last week, I realized I crave pity [00:57.90] When I retell a story, I make everything sound worse [01:04.82] Can't shake the feeling that I'm just bad at healing [01:09.82] And maybe that's the reason every sentence sounds rehearsed [01:17.25] Which is ironic because when I wasn't honest, I was still being ignored [01:24.92] (Lying for attention just to get neglection) [01:32.06] Now we're estranged [01:34.73] [01:37.40] Things I once enjoyed (ah-ah) [01:43.39] Just keep me employed now [01:49.55] Things I'm longing for [01:55.28] Someday, I'll be bored of [01:58.59] It's so weird [02:10.45] That we care so much until we don't [02:16.84] I'm getting older, I've got more on my shoulders [02:22.14] But I'm getting better at admitting when I'm wrong [02:28.34] I'm happier than ever, at least that's my endeavor [02:34.04] To keep myself together and prioritize my pleasure [02:40.88] 'Cause to be honest, I just wish that what I promise [02:45.64] Would depend on what I'm given (not on his permission) [02:51.82] (Wasn't my decision) to be abused, mmm [03:01.17] Things I once enjoyed [03:07.42] Just keep me employed now [03:13.32] Things I'm longing for, mmh [03:19.64] Someday, I'll be bored of [03:22.96] It's so weird [03:34.27] That we care so much until we don't [03:41.39] But next week, I hope I'm somewhere laughing [03:46.28] For anybody asking, I promise I'll be fine [03:52.72] I've had some trauma, did things I didn't wanna [03:57.92] Was too afraid to tell ya, but now, I think it's time [04:03.09]