Minus Sixty One

Minus sixty one Have I ever really loved someone? Do I deserve what I've got? Now the grid systems turned into traps And the fear is switching sides I own a million dollars worth of stock But I still won't sleep at night What is it that I've become? Minus sixty one Now the water level rises high In my cold paradise Where men sit in circles and talk numbers I never really liked The way they think of life as some kind of gamble And watch the city drown Where is it that I belong? Minus sixty one Now the wind cuts the lips like a knife And the sun is out of sight I see the world I built lose at trial What is left and what is right? I made the worst mistake one can make Pretending and playing blind What is it I'm trying to find?