I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind They talk shit, but I love it every time And I realize I've tasted blood and it is sweet I've had the rug pulled beneath my feet I've trusted lies and so in men Broke down and put myself back together again Stared in the mirror and punched it to shatters Collected the pieces and picked out the dagger I've pinched my skin in between my two fingers And wished I could cut some parts off with some scissors Come on, could you maybe give me a smile? No, I ain't got nothing to smile about I got no one to smile for, I've waited a while for A moment to say, I don't owe you a goddamn thing I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind They talk shit, but I love it every time And I realize That I'm no sweet dream but I'm a hell of a night That I'm no sweet dream, but I'm a hell of a night No, I won't smile, but I'll show you my teeth And I'ma let you speak if you just let me breathe I've been polite, but won't be caught dead Letting a man tell me what I should do in my bed Keep my exes in check in my basement 'Cause kindness is weakness, or worse, you're complacent I could play nice, or I could be a bully I'm tired and angry, but somebody should be Come on, could you maybe give me a smile? No, I ain't got nothing to smile about I got no one to smile for, I've waited a while for A moment to say, I don't owe you a goddamn thing I, I keep a record of the wreckage in my life I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind They talk shit, but I love it every time And I realize I keep a record of the wreckage in my life I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind They talk shit, but I love it every time And I realize Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware And I'd rather be a real nightmare than die unaware Someone like me can be a real nightmare, completely aware But I'm glad to be a real nightmare, so save me your prayers I keep a record of the wreckage in my life I gotta recognize the weapon in my mind They talk shit, but I love it every time And I realize I'm a nightmare (I gotta weapon in my mind) I'm a nightmare (I gotta weapon in my mind) I'm a nightmare (The real nightmare) I'm a nightmare (The real nightmare) I'm a nightmare