Lose Control

I'm not used to saying this out loud So why do I feel so free? Didn't know this piece of hell That's peekin' through my heaven Would comfort me I'm not used to losing my mind But its pieces put me at peace For months I'm okay with not knowing where I'm going It liberates me I think I've lost control Oh, oh, ah, ah I've lost it all Oh, oh, ah, mm mm, mm mm I don't want to live here forever But something 'bout this moment feels so right Almost like the second chances start over Just this one time, cause this time I think I've lost control, control Oh, oh, ah, ah And I want to lose it all Oh, oh, ah, mm mm, mm mm I'm not used to saying this out loud So why do I feel so free?